The meaning of the Rainbow?

Many of you may be wondering what the heck is with the rainbow picture on this blog? Well let me try to explain where and what meaning it has for me. On January 21, 2005 our 3 year old Katie was killed after a large, unsecured wardrobe cabinet fell on top of her. Most of the readers of this blog are probably aware of this, perhaps just not aware of the date. By following the link to the right...you can learn more about our daughter and child safety. By scrolling below, you can find the You Tube video created to raise awareness of furniture safety.
Anyway, back to the rainbow. I am a firm believer in "signs" if you are able to maintain an open mind and open heart. Trying to dig deeply into the meaning of little things or eagerly anticipating the presence of a lost loved one is almost like watching paint dry. It just doesn't happen. But if one keeps his or her heart wide open than even the smallest occurrence can signify a strong presence. When you are least expecting a "sign" at least for me that is, is when my Katie makes her presence felt. Exactly 3 months after the date of the accident, my husband and I with our two boys were at the baseball field, FoxRok. Both boys had different games and B and I walking inbetween the two fields so we could watch both boys play. All of a sudden, E shouted, a Rainbow!!! Far above our heads on that bright, sunny day, an inverted rainbow smiled down upon us. No clouds were in sight and rain was not in the forecast. So where did the rainbow come from? You may have your scientific explanations and logical answers....however I maintain my belief that it was my daughter letting us all know that she was okay. I shed many tears that wonderful evening; both tears of extreme grief and hopefulness. Missing my Katie from my core but allowing myself to believe that she was in this paradise called Heaven.
Other little signs that allow me to feel my daughter's presence.....a yellow butterfly fluttering nearby, the lights in our hallway turning themselves on, her favorite toy playing at 2 in the morning, or the color of a typed paper on the computer not changing from her favorite color blue. There have been many, many signs...and I have learned to not go around looking or waiting for them..but to accept that they will appear when I am not expecting them...in the smallest but most significant of ways.
So to all of you who have lost loved ones....try to keep an open mind and open heart...don't go looking for the signs...just accept even the smallest ones...and feel the presence.

J